So my mom bought a Canada Goose jacket for herself and I reminded her that she promised she would buy me one one day. She replied with “we share, we share.” So I said okay. The next day I wore it and I have been wearing it since LOL. My little mishcevious brain never seems to disappoint.
Have been mia for the past week because I was away in Ottawa for Taekwondo Canadian Nationals 2018. I originally dreaded the week because I wasn’t competing and was basically forced to coach. However, I met so many awesome people that made it all worth. The stress I was put in that week was so intense, I broke down one morning and couldn’t control my tears. Thankfully the people around me created such amazing memories with me that I left the frustration behind. Two of the masters tried to set me up with this guy and although he was cute I admired him more for his Taekwondo abilities. I still keep in contact with the people I met, hopefully we get closer the next time I see them at competition. And hopefully by then, I am competing.
Seeing you intentionally doing things with someone to fuck with my emotions was not something I’d expect from you. Being petty and getting back at me for no reason isn’t something I’d thought you would ever do. While dancing with her, you kept on looking at me to make sure I was watching or something. You kept grabbing me and poking me to get my attention. Did you want it that bad? Even friends who didn’t know of you noticed how you were trying to grab my attention. Always in my peripherals while you were with her. We all noticed it. You have all the attention from her already. I don’t know what you want. I cried a lot that night because of you. Because of how petty you were.
How could you betray a friend like that? Take away something he has his eyes on just because you are lonely and wanted someone. Are you not a loyal enough person to appreciate your friend? How is someone going to ever trust you if you pull shit like that. Friendships are built from the exact things you violated, trust and loyalty. The worst part is, his personality is too good for your ass to betray. He still forgives you because he valurs friendship, unlike you. I’m surprised he can even put up with you.
I was supposed to play pool and darts with my friends after dinner today. I don’t know if it was because of my 2hr worth of sleep time last night or my tendency to have really bad food coma, but I was so fucking tired after dinner. I wanted to stay out but my eyes would not fucking open so I told my friend to just drive me home. The minute I got home I passed out. Keep in mind I passed out at like 9:30pm…I woke up at 4am… It was supposed to be a power nap. FUCK.
Its 4:30am and I miss you. But you’re not good for me.
I’ve always had very minor anxiety issues, never thought of it as anything too intense. However, I slept in today by accident and skipped two of my classes. I sometimes skip class on will, so it shouldn’t be that big of a deal. I totally freaked out today and had a minor anxiety attack. I think the past few months has caused me to be so emotional and unstable that today was just the icing on the cake. It’s like blowing into a balloon. A few breaths in doesn’t seem that big of a deal until it builds up and blows.